Unconventional · Conventionalist

Oh God. I am now officially going to use this as a Cyber_land document because I have so much stress to do with work I am keeping that for my paper diary.

So we put it on hold for a bit because me and Alice fancied real people (still do but we have accepted it will never work - again a matter for my paper diary).

Then we gave up on them and me and Lano went to the PotC world - with the marauders (so a fanfiction script came about) but after a few nights decided to go back to Grimmald place.

Then me and Alice were looking at Snape videos on youtube and she liked him again so he came back and with Snape came Draco. Alice and Snape are all cool but struggling for interesting things do to.

Me and Draco were off before we started really. He said he didn't want a serious relationship. I went through the initially annoyance and then got imperioused by an evil version of Draco. Evil Potter was hot and Sirius pretended to be evil - with a hat - which was funny. So I ended up killing REAL Draco.

I think that's closure. I am done with Draco now. He's just a silly little..............slightly older boy

I am ill again my stomach feels a bit better but I now have a TERRIBLE cold. Slept for 13 and a half hours. Going to read fanfiction again and try to do at least and hour of art or it will be going on all weekend - where I will go shopping again even though i have NO money WHATSOEVER.

No wait, my stomach is cramping again. IT REALLY HURTS

I had a weird dream last night that my bathroom was haunted. We lit a little fire and put it by the sink and and ironing board infront of that. And water kept pushing up the tiles. It was SO random. My mum kept bringing up the battle of hastings.

I'm not sure if I have mentioned Snape, the sanity raper before. He has buttons up the side of his trousers, which Alice and I believe are the tansfigured sanities of the people he has raped. Alice has very dark green, kneehigh button/Snape boots. They cost her £125 but are AMAZING.

So I started to write a story. Set in the winter of 1901, London. each chapter would be a day. Sirius was the main character who worked on an insane ward with James and Remus. They were going to know Snape but I don't know how. Anyway, it would have been about how they notice all the patients had something in common and evetually Remus would go insane and think he is a werewolf. They would find out it is Snape by the end but he would get away with it because they go to claim he rapes sanities and tranfigures them into buttons that he wears on his trousers and the general public/court would lock Sirius and James up for being insane.

I spent the entire day reading Draco and Snape fanfiction - obviously not that pairing slash *shudder*

and I enjoyed it.

I am a very bad person.

I had weened myself off it

And thanks to one day I am not totally addicted.

Well I got a terrible stomach ache and back ache at the start of community orchestra and it got to the point that I had to go home half-way through.

So here I am, on my sofa having slept for 13 hours - as opposed to my usual 6-8 hours. I have sent a message to get all the work I a missing and will get on with some Graphics - the only homework I have. ^.^

I told Draco I don't fancy him - which is true by the way. Honestly. I realised the problem with our relationship is that I love him; but really only platonicially. I have noticed this being a problem - increasingly. I get on better with friends who I ca flirt with in the knowledge that we are both just joking around. The second there could be more depth in the feelings I no longer like the situation.

Well I better get on with work

I have discovered I love 10th Kingdom.
It truelly is a wonderful thing.

Me and Draco got back together - how stupid can I be??
I just don't function without him.

He finally came around and said he still liked/loved me.
I said I didnt love him anymore and if he had said that yesterday I would have jumped into his arms but I am a stronger, better person now.
He left in a huff.

(Cue Draco's room. Very big, all light off, only light coming in from the full moon past the french windows leading on to his balcony)

Livi: Draco? Are you ok beca-

Draco: FINE

Livi: because I am so sorry and I do still love you.

Draco: I am fine

Livi: *sits down* you're not, you're being weird. I am not leaving until I know you are going to be safe to leave alone.

Draco: *freakily calm* oh, my dear, Olivia. It is not MY safety I am worried about *evil smirk * You have until three to get out, I don't want to do this.

Livi: I am not going to leave you

Draco: 1

Draco: 2

Draco: 3

Draco: CRUCIO

Livi: WHY DO YOU HATE ME SO MUCH?

Draco: *steps right up close* *sigh* The problem is I don't *apparates*

So Snape went and sorted it all out with him on the condition that Alice would make it 'worth his while'. And me and Draco were all good :D:D

***

Then things started to get a bit stagnant for all of us so me and Alice went to a concert in Mongolia. Except that we weren't really there. We cast Glamour charms and worked out stories. We are in the process of being the total opposite towards Snape and Draco: Alice's character as dimwitted and slutty as possible. Mine as easy and uncomfrontational as possible. So we will seduce them and them and either show them who we really are or make it all go wrong so they realise how much better they are with us.

Alice:
Name: Juliette
Hair: red
Eyes: green
Age: 19
Story: From a high ranking pure blood family. Got expelled from school - when she attended - for sleeping with all the professor. No one noticed until she was found in a compromising position with the Arthmancy teacher. The school taught a lot of Dark Arts
Her father just sent her to be tutored by Snape which is why she is here.

Me
name: Portia - anyone spot a Shakespeare theme?
heigh: long black and straight
eyes: brown
Story: Born into aristocracy but feels stifled at the inforced opinions of her father - like Draco. Is very pleasent and has run off to join the order because voldemort killed some of her best friends.

So there you have it.
it is going very well
Draco is infatuated
Snape has an incredably feeling of power over Juliette who obviously needed his teachings and has a much lower interlect level than himself.

Last night I had a really great time. It had the Friday feel to it. Alice, Harriet and I went to the cinema for 17:45 except that harriet had got the times wrong so we booked for 20:00 and went to Pizza hut (which we were going to do afterwards anyway). So we were eating our salads and talking about physics - feeling like complete geeks and decided to change the topic to - da da da dum...teachers! And we were talking about who we can talk to and how sad we will be to leave them. Then Harriet and I went to the toilet and i touched up my mascara. Then we come out and who should be walking in with him wife but our History teacher whom we love very much. He was wearing a wolves football shirt and a rockstar type leather jacket with chains. We though: o.0 O.O and scurried back to the table to giggle with Alice. Harriet decided to come up with a string of comments about him coming to the cinema in the same showing of zorro as us and she said she would sit by him and keep saying:

"Sir is that historically accurate?"
"Are those the right type of guns sir?"
"Can you do a Spanish accent?" (he's very good at accents and impressions)
"Don't you think he's really hot sir?"
"I'd like a bit of her @.@"

Me and Alice were in silent hysterics throughout the rest of the pizza we were sharing and then went to get some of that ice-cream factory stuff for little children. He noticed us - as we were right by his table - and activly ignored us, like someone who is trying to ignore students from school. And I can hardly blame him. To be honest thought, Me and Alice were says how you wouldn't pick half past six on a Friday night at the nearby shopping centre in a Pizza Hut for a date with your wife. It was all families with small children and us. Frankie's and Benny's is next door. A few chavish 17/18 year olds came in for dates later.

Then at half past seven we went into the completely deserted cinema. Whatever happened to Friday nights? The centre of Birmingham is usually packed around that time. So we went in about twenty five minute early and behaved very immaturely tying to suck malteasers up straws. Then I told Alice and Harriet to think about what they were doing. As soon as the realisation that you cannot suck a malteaser up a straw hits you, you start to laugh and that makes it impossible. Then Harriet decided she needed to toilet so left and me and Alice had an indepth Snape discussion.

The film was good - if not depressing.

Had a very lucious Malfoy type character in it.

On the subject of Lucious...

DRACO LEFT ME

He told me he had no emotional attachment and didn't think it was a stringy relationship.

I LOVED HIM
I STILL LOVE HIM

HE LEFT ME

lano is in with sirius now
Alice and Snape remain good as ever

yes according to this girl in my science group who hates me this is what I am and the whole class is entitled to laugh at me.

My history teacher says it is just because she is jealous of my academic abilities and the fact that I actually enjoy school.

I was deeply upset.

I am over it now.

Latin was fun, Chris kept us all entertained.

Alice still isn't around and mysteriously nor is Lano.

Getting pretty worried about my science GCSEs.
German is going so amazingly well and I was worried last year so I am happy.

My aol has broken. It lets me log on and use msn messanger without problem. It will not however,let me go on any websites and I have no idea what to do.

I only had the brainwave at about 18:00 today, to then use Internet explorer to access sites. This then concluded that the issue WAS aol and not general internet access.

Still don't know how to fix it.

Ok, now this is potentially probelmatic.

My lack of relaxation skills.

I have no work to do anymore so I am twitchy. I just know I will end up doing some more art but first I will try and relax.

Been shopping AGAIN today.

This time with my mum and I only spent £7.99 on Lyn Truss' new book 'talk to the hand'.
Lano and tano are out holding a fancy dress party for soe 6-8 year olds. May they rest in peace.

I have given Draco to lano because she seems to be offering him what he really needs right now.

http://www.runabot.com/cgi-bin/webcom/caimjava?botname=snapeybot

Snapeybot
hehe

stealing my job

Done another oooooh MY GOD IT IS 22:22 - thought it was about 21:00

I have done another 4 hours of art today - 1 from half 7 - half 8 this morning. That is about 3 pages - all of which still need annotation. I a now slightly ahead of schedule and free to allocate the next to days - and rest of tonight - to read some fafics, my new book maybe listen to some music or go for a walk. And I will enjoy it much more knowing that I have done so much work this holiday.

I still feel the urge to get up and actually finish my Graphics project. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I REALLY WANT TO FINISH IT.

Anyway, lano ended it with James (they are going to be friends) and she is now dating Draco.

How nice.

Had a lovely, but tiring day spending rather too much money - well no, I feel I have spent too much but I only spent about £20. Got two scarves of a market store and some Jelly Belly from Selfridges' pick and mix Jelly Belly store. It was train tickets, lunch and coffee that costs more than you expect. Anyway, I was a Jelly Belly virgin until today when I got: coconut
Juicy pear
Green apple

Cost £2.98, which, can I add, was much less than Harry spent on them and she will eat them faster than me anyway ^.^
Now I love them and my tonsils are no longer covered in little white spots and I can talk again one more day of rest and I will be fine.

I just flicked through my art and graphics because I am about to show them to my mum and I noticed that they are looking absolutly brilliant. That is not me being arrogant because I usually hate my work but I was trying to look at them from an outsider's point of view and they are actually both looking really good and I couldn't repress a grin. I'm really proud.

Done all compulsary Art work and had a very relaxing bath.

Neither Lano or Tano have turned up yet *sniff* but Haz has been here for a while - and matt came for a bit so we went to Hogwarts and had potions and got into a lot of trouble with Snape.

As you can probably tell I have calmed down a lot as I have done the minimal amount of work required of me - and we weren't told to do any Graphics to I am now MILES ahead.

All is good - except my throat

I ignored my alarm at 07:00 and am glad of it. I feel I will be more productive today after a good night's sleep.

But I haven't really had one because I have been up every hour or so getting a drink so I don't cough myself sick. Therefore, I can deduce that it is a viral infection that is making me want to stay home tomorrow and not see Alice. But I refuse to - I am leaving my bedroom tomorrow, I am catching the train at quater to ten.

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I have spent HOURS doing Graphics today.

From 07:00 - 18:57

I thought there was very little difference but looking back there are four more pages and the first 15 i did look a lot better. I ended up filing down some foamboard with a nail file at about 13:00.

Still have tonsilitus
Still can't talk
Still have hours and hours of art

I had a nervous break down at lunchtime. I started crying and rocking because I thought I had more stuff to do than I did and thought I would never get it all done. So I stopped everything and concentrated on talking to lano for about 10 minutes and then slowly realisation dawned that:

a) I had 4 and a half days left to do it all - well 4 because most of Friday i am in Birmingham
b) I am ahead in graphics anyway
c) nothing that i have to do is in for Monday.
d) I am me and therefore it will all get done

So I pulled myself together and sorted it out.

At about 15:30 lano went to a Rasmus concert with tanya so I got in a few hours solid work - had been talking to her since 09:00. So sadly for the first night in like two weeks, neither of the will be online until very late with me. Sniff.

No wait there has been nights when they have been out. Just seems like last night was a repeat of many nights.

Oh well, I have plenty to read and a fic I started last night that has about 32 chapters - long chapter. I can happily emerse myself in that while I sit here on my sofa with a duvet, the lights dimmed and a pile of history books I carried from my dad's study/library/thing this afternoon.

I was going to go to the Hagley library but physically couldn't get dressed so I made myself go get some from downstairs for this evening because my hands were seizing up from the amount of annotations I had done.

Lucious: its none of your business why I am here Draco!

Draco: you get off talking to me like that

Lucious: go run along to your mother, she was always fond of you, if I had it my way I would have dropped you in the nearest river!

Draco: *looks really hurt* I’m leaving *does so*

Livi: *hits Lucious*

Tanya: I’m going

Lucious: No you stay if i kill him I need a witness

Leanne: LEAVE HIM ALONE

Lucious: He’s weak, he couldn’t even do what our master asked him to do

Livi: You’re weak

Lucious: I am not

Livi: Draco has the sense to only obey his own orders

Leanne: GO LIVI

Livi: And Voldemort is a half blood anyway

Lucious: He may be half blood, but to me he is as pure as myself, he should have been full blood

Livi: HE'S A HYPERCRIT

Lucious: I don’t have to take this from you

Leanne: yeah you do

Lucious: do I really?.....AVARDA...

Leanne: NO

Tanya:*snatches wand* MALFOY GO TO BED

Leanne: LOL

Lucious: she started it!

Tanya: I DONT CARE GO TO BED AND SLEEP OFF THE STEAM!

Lucious: but...but...but...

Tanya: NO BUTS, I’ll give ya up to 3...1....2... (Malfoy runs upstairs and a door slams!)

Draco: *sits down on sofa looking really upset* He hates me…..… and I don’t know what I’ve done

Leanne: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Draco: *close to tears*

Tanya: he doesn’t, you want to hear what he says in his sleep Draco

Draco: stop awing me

Leanne: Stop being so cute then

Draco: Just because I stand up for what I believe in- I AM NOT CUTE

Leanne: Yeah ya are.

Draco: I hate my life, I want to die *takes out wand and points it at self*

Leanne: DON’T DO IT!

Lucious: yeah don’t

Draco: STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO!!

Lucious: you want to know why I hate you so much Draco?

Draco: Yes, actually I would

Lucious: Maybe you will even be glad about it. You are actually my brother

Livi: DUH DUH DUUUUUH

Leanne: OMG WTF
Tanya: OMG WTF

Draco:………….omg……is he drunk?

Lucious: No. My father and your mother, I don’t like to think of it

Draco: You’re lying

Lucious: No I am not.

Lucious: my father seduced your mother under a love potion! there was nothing I could

Draco: I don’t want to hear this

Lucious: You have to know the truth

Draco: Who else knows?

Lucious: No one. My father died shortly after, my mother was already dead.

Draco: This still doesn’t explain why you hate me

Lucious: Don’t you see? You are the result of something filthy, corrupt.

Draco: BUT IT IS NOT M FAULT

Lucious: He stole my wife! My chance to have my own children! cant you see Draco, I am attacking you because your the closest i have to attacking my father!

Draco: so I suppose you’re going to blame your lust for causing others pain on this are you?

Lucious: No, I joined the Dark lord long before any of this.

Draco: I DON’T WANT TO BE ATTACKED. you do realise I don’t have to show you the minimal level of respect I used to anymore? I can treat you like the scum you are.

Lucious: to be quite honest Draco I don’t really care, I am not scum Draco, you are at the same level as me, you bear the same mark remember.

Draco: I’ve reformed, like so many before me who have seen sense. I do not follow the orders of others and show no strength of mind.

Lucious: You should have been in Gryffindor

Draco: No I shouldn’t. You should have been in Hufflepuff

Leanne: It’s getting harsh now

Livi: tell me about it

Lucious: you can never reform, that mark will never leave you Draco, believe me I’ve tried

Draco: *looks away in a very upset/confused/pissed off/theatrical sort of way*

Leanne: AWWWWWWWWW

Lucious: it wasn’t her fault nor was it yours about what happened but I cant help hating you because when i look at you I see him

Livi: YES YES YES FINISHED ART! YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS 8 HOURS *faints*

Lucious: *gives her a perverted look*

Draco: *growl*

Lucious: Hate me all you want Draco, I deserve it.

Livi: *wake up* I’ll hate you *hexes him*

Lucious: *leaves*

Tanya: omg he’s crying

Livi: yeah, Draco is pretending not to,